We're Pregnant!

Yes, this came as a shock to us too as this was the first month we were given the o.k. to start trying again, but had decided to wait at least another month to gather more information from Dr.s and to just lengthen the break of not thinking about everything trying entails. And not to mention our previous history of having a hard time getting pregnant. Just another reminder of how we're not in control.

About 2 weeks ago after getting back from our Memorial Day weekend it dawned on me that I might be a little late so I pulled a pregnancy test out of my stash and just for kicks took one and then another and another and another not believing the result. Positive, what? That can't be right. Positive again, hmmmm... The following Wednesday my Dr. confirmed the pregnancy with HCG and progesterone level testing. My levels of both were really low last pregnancy so it was reassuring to hear that my progesterone was awesome and that my HCG looked better this time. Not awesome, but it did more than double over 2 days and was not in a scary low range.

I'm already experiencing the normally irritating early signs of pregnancy signs of crazy fatigue, a little nausea, soreness, etc. but to me these are truly a gift from God easing my worrisome thoughts. To be honest I'm having trouble wrapping my head around being pregnant again. I feel so blessed to be experiencing this beautiful gift again and thank God for another chance at bringing a healthy baby into our world, but I'm nervous. I know this is normal to feel after what we've gone through, but I don't want to be and I feel a little guilty not being able to just focus on the blessing. I know I will feel so much better when I see our baby in the ultrasound next week. My mind is constantly in prayer for our baby's health, and for joy and hope and strength to overcome my anxious thoughts.

It looks as if I am almost 6 weeks along so that would make our baby's due date around the beginning of February. Oh how I hope we get to meet our baby this time!